You know sometimes I really wonder if the people around me actually want me around... Dinner with jinyi and Denise last night was awesome because I know they wanted mw around but on other occasions you can really tell when people don't want you around. Like when you say you have to go they all say Or one of them says something like "if you need to go now just go Lo, it's okay" making it sound like they are giving me approval to not go. But whatever totally. Haha I always put myself in these kind of situations and friendships were after a while I realise people I thought close to me aren't really that close... We grow apart haha.. Well more like the other party those I'm just stonning half the time and am in my own delusional world were everything is perfect haha.
It hurts when people don't call you to go out and do stuff but you find out suddenly and just force yourself along >.<. Haha. Well now I realised that some people don't really want me around. Don't call me when I'm not there but I call them when they are missing. In the end I think I'm just going to give up on such pointless friendships. Seriously. It always ends in hurt Pehaps if I was a more normal Malay boy I would have more lasting relations like some of my other friends. Maybe Malays should hang with Malays and chinese with Chinese at times... I don't know. Well at the end of the day I don't hate em but that doesn't mean I have to like them anymore I suppose B). Just a hi bye situation. So for now bye.
You don't talk. You don't call. I always have to initiate but it's always me who falls. What's the pt of such sadness. It's time to remove such flaws and move on to a happier light.
