Sometimes I feel alright
Sometimes I feel Happy
Sometimes I feel Sad
Sometimes I feel Angry
Sometimes I feel moody
Sometimes I feel like my worlds come crashing down
Sometimes I feel like nobody really cares
Sometimes I feel really confused
Sometimes I dont know who to trust
Sometimes I trust the wrong people
MOST of the time,
I end up hurt.
Sometimes I just think too much
Sometimes I feel insecure
Sometimes I act too much
Sometimes even my fake smile isnt enough
Sometimes I try too hard to be happy
Sometimes I get hurt really bad
Sometimes I hurt myself
Sometimes I cry because of that
Sometimes I feel happier after that
but MOST of the TIME it just makes me feel like worst
But amidst all the times i fail to see something truly important...
Sometimes my friends are hurting more than I am
Sometimes im oblivious to everyone around me
SOmetimes i forget to care
Sometimes I forget to see the worlds bigger than that
Sometimes I feel so helpless
Sometimes I can't help anyone
Sometimes all i do is be annoying
Sometimes all I do is emo
Sometimes I dont see how that makes other people feel
Sometimes Im so self centered
Sometimes I forget to trust in my friends
Sometimes I forget to be myself
Sometimes that makes people sad
And MOST of the time I can't do anything at all because I'm a self-centered retard who doesn't care enough about my friends yet I want them to care about me. Im truly sorry. Wish i wasn't such a loser but I can't change who I am right. And for anyone who disagrees you should step into my shoes and youll see how much of a loser I am. I trust the wrong people... I get hurt so bad till my heart breaks into a million pieces... I try to keep smiling when im hurting so bad... I reject my friends help... I cry when im alone.. Im utterly useless... Life is hard.. nobody's life is easy.... why do I make mine out to be? I just create my own problems... I just wish I could hide back in my hole and never show my face.... Because right now... It hurts so bad that I don't want to be here anymore. This is the first time ive felt this way... Where i actually TRULY wish to be with her and am happy about it. I know it isnt right and probably isnt what she wants for me... But life here.. just isnt worth it right now.. Gosh here i go again -_-. Well whatever.
P.S I am my own worst enemy and to quote a friend "When you get to close to someone... for some reason everything always turns sour and you always end up being hurt or hurting someone else" It just hurts so bad when the person u truly relied on doesnt realise he/she is the cause of youre misery... It hurts when u realise they dont really care and are better at acting than u....
Goodbye.
