So A div just ended and i bowled like crap but whatever. I'm just so utterly depressed about the fact that i don't get the opportunity to bowl with my favourite people anymore.... Today was highly depressive for me.. not different from any other day i suppose. It hurts so bad. Problem is they don't even realise they hurt me so badly its as if everything that we built has already broken down. Probably thinking too much but it's been happening too often recently. The most important person to me doesn't even know or care so why should I right ? life just sucks seriously. whatever i guess it just goes to show that you should pick you're friends wisely or you will just end up hurt again.
Well anyway had dinner with Azri and Sab and i must apologise because i was really down then... for obvious reasons. But you know what nobody really cares so haha i dont care either. Decided just to emo helplessly because there isn't a hand for me to take. Of course i thank people like Joey Jer E K Mah who are completely genuine to me and don't like, pang seh or pretend to be my friends. Whatever seriously. Though there are other's i can't mention all of them haha... Still it makes me sad that i can't actually keep my emotions tamed down. But then again it doesn't matter what i do because nobody really truly asks if I'm okay. And why would they right ? I m kinda insignificant in anyone's life. Well whatever.
I just wish God would bring me to her now... the one true person... always there.. but now gone. Well i guess it's just a matter of time before I meet her up there so it's fine. Nothing left here worth being here for so I might as well leave because i'll just be a distant memory soon even to the one person who i actually trusted with everything. Well honestly he can go and die lol because i can't be bothered anymore. All those people who have smth against me and don't say it and try to talk behind my back... Well whatever it's you're life. You can chose to be a backstabbing bitch and I wont say anything but seriously just f off. Whatever. FML anyway. Seriously FML.
