Isnt it just the worst thing ever to surrounded by a sea of people but feel so alone. Well sometimes being alone is the best thing for one to experience in order to move on with life. Its just a phase we have to go through during some period of our life. It is neither a problem nor a blessing its just a thing. I know im going to sound really selfish when i say that i want to be alone, far from others and just on my own. Why is it selfish? because i'm away from the people that i think care about me and they think im just uninterested and avoiding them :(.
I NEED PEOPLE WHO RECIPROCATE. Right now that's how i feel. Im tired of being the guy that's totally random, im tired of being the guy who tries to talk to everyone and im tired of being someone im not. Some people just make me feel more alive because i don't have to be that way around them. It's usually the most unexpected people who gives us the greatest happiness :). I don't really care about what people think about me or the people i hang out with. If they stop and make comments it just means that they're lives are so incredible boring until they have to criticize other people to make a conversation out of nothing. You don't have to make other people feel bad or criticize them to justify you're own boredom. But well whatever.
Seems im always posting something emo nowadays but doing so keeps me from showing it in school :). Anyone who knows me knows im really quite emotional and expressive and sensitive in good and bad ways. And even if people say "Oh that's so gay!" well whatever I can't be bothered with you anymore. Every person is interesting even gay people so i don't really care haha. Well anyway back to the point, because i showcase anger and sadness here, it makes me feel happier when im in school so dont seems so troubled in school :). WEll that's about it.
(P.S Things seem to be taking a sharper down turn as time passes... Man this sucks.)
