Btw this post may be rather uneventful haha :)
Well life's had it's ups and downs but through it all, we can only smile and hope for a better tomorrow :). So for once in my 17 year life i decided to just stop doubting myself and moving forward all the way till tomorrow and never think about yesterday. Easier said than done, I know... Especially for someone as erratic and unusual as myself. But then again, looking back on my life, I've realized something, if i was to listen to all those people who kept telling me to change and that i was weird, I would not have become the same person. Haha to everyone out there who think's you're different and nobody understands you, there will always be someone who will :), and if you're as lucky as me a bunch of people who you can call
"FRIENDS". These are the people who keep you through everyday other than you're family. Family is the reason for living and friend's just make that reason all the more important and dear to you're heart. Remember that Ad!
( Doubt is the first step to the road to uncertainty which leads to a loss of trust and belief in the people you hold the most dear to you and to yourself )
Anyway on to my life that has been going as fast as a river flowing into the sea where it becomes just one of many.
Well the new year is coming and i'm really excited yet a bit sad haha. If anyone know's me they would know i hate AGEING. Forgive me i don't hate the AGED but I just despise the fact that another year in my life is over and i have not done anything worth a tell. That's why i don't like to celebrate my birthday haha but that day bring's me both happiness and sadness which is good in a way... It reminds me that I'm only Human haha :). P.S 39 more days... the countdown begins
So, last week was a really hectic week as I tried till my last breath to do everything i needed to do before i flew off to bangkok haha. An impossible task but what's life without a challenge? Finished a little bit of homework and brought the rest along with me :). Unfortunately my brother's 1 litre yakult that we bought spilt in my bag
DRENCHING ALL MY ELECTRONICS. I know, tragedy :(. My camera could'nt work so i was really a bit sad but oh wells right :)... You live and you learn not to put yakult in you're bag! Especially if it's a 1 litre bottle haha :P. So no pictures unfortunately... I know, it is depressing but life goes on ( Omg so emotional over a camera?? haha ) So Jolene Joyce Den and Pam bailed to meet me on the night before i left because they had things to do :/... A little upset about that haha. I was kinda miffed because E and Jer had asked me to meet them on that same night and i said i could'nt... Haha... I was too chicken to muster up the courage to call them and ask them to meet me :P. So i just asked
Claire and yes of course
Jason ( Those 2 come in a pair unfortunately) over to my house to talk and all because i needed some company haha :). They are some of the few people i can count on :). Never knew i would find more in JC life haha but i guess i was wrong. Just a small tribute to the people I was lucky enough to meet before i continue my post :).
( Forgot to rotate XD Sorry jo haha ! )
Ok so more of Bangkok haha, lol sorry for my slightly annoying ADD issues :P haha i've always been like that... Its a wonder how i remember anything :). So basically, it was really fun :). lol in short.
Sunday was really fun because i had breakfast with my two neighbours, Peter and Preston ( haha twins btw :P ) It was totally fun because i <3 meeting new people
SORRY JIA MIN ( SISTER ) FOR LEAVING YOU TO DO ALL THE PLANNING WITHOUT ME! ALSO, SORRY CANNNDICE, CHICKEN, MX, DIANNE & SABBY :(.
So sorry i was not of much help haha! Leave all the march planning to me :P!
Haha ok i hope that helps a little to get me off the hook :P. Anyway don't care about candice :P Come my blog also suan me only... then always say we quarrel! Please la ! It's because you always fight with me :X.
Btw met Isaac ( The strange guy who added me on facebook ) Haha i totally forgot he was our next year's DSA student.. Lol stupid old me ! He's a really cool guy ! For some reason I thought he was small... He's friggin tall omg. Can see why "someone" like's him :P. ( wont say who! XD )
Ok so Wednesday i had to go after goal setting :(. And i think i talked WAYYY too long haha. I was giving the speech for the guys and it talked for like 15 minutes omg... Then the girls talked for 3 mins... I felt so long winded ! :P.
Ok so for now the real post is over whilst I wait for more pictures to be uploaded i shall begin my 365 day PROMISE. I Promise on this day, the 31st of december to write part of a story in my heart everyday! I will blog it everyday along with whatever I have going on... ( I know it sounds like Julie & Julia.. But please note this decision is completely independant of that haha! My friend said i should do something and finish it for once... :P ) So this is you're tribute Ger... You may not be with me but i promise you i will do it and i hope you'll see it from up there wherever you are :)
Day 1.
She sat at her window as the rain drops pattered down her glassed view. All she could do was wish for another chance, but there is no such thing as a second chance in her world. Though tear's may overflow, though her cheeks faded towards the colour of the moon, though she felt aches in her heart when nothing was wrong, she was powerless; loss into the calamity of an uncertain heart. This is a story about a girl who wished for more but never truly accepted what she already had. It was too late.
As the month's passed all she did was stare through her window, waiting. The forest was her friend, her ally but also her enemy. As it swayed back and forth, greeting her every morning, it just reminded her of all the goodbye's it made her go through. She cursed it all. It was not worth living her life. She was stuck on page 6, when she ran out of ink. Jack was always there for her as she screamed through the night, wanting, craving, crying. But all she did was push him away regardless of how much she needed him. All she could remember were the lost year's where he left his wife and his daughter, alone. Why did she need him anyway? Why after all this time? She still loved him, but hated him as well. She loved to hate him. It was the only thing that made her feel human, especially after
he left.
( Well im tired for now haha and im going to go out soon so that's it for day 1 :) )
