Life is but a never ending journey because even after we move on to the afterlife, it's the
impact we leave on the world that carriers our name through the endless ages. Has someone ever impacted your life so much until you sometimes cry for he/she is no longer? I have. Today I remembered her at the worst possible time, in school. I tried to control my thoughts but here I am typing it out. Well like today's civics said, sometimes blogging can help to alleviate the pressure and I always believe that you can only be happy once you've just said to someone or typed out your feelings. Of course I am a unusual person with a weird personality; but that's what makes me, me :). So yeah had this odd uneasy feeling almost the entire day because of this, my heart racing and my thoughts countless and relentless. Coupled with that I also just felt like someone was giving me the cold shoulder, and it bothered me so... until this very moment it still pierces through my mind. I just need to have verbal conformation or something. Which is precisely why i don't like hypocrites. I wish for once that I can attain conformation or I will keep thinking about this forever. I just wish this person would say I don't like you because of _______ or like i find you annoying, or something! Well that's why I appreciate people like Diane who are upfront and don't try to hide things from you. To me, it makes life so much more easier. I just wish this person would let me know if I did something wrong or if i am just impossible to be around. Haiz, nevermind, Think of the positive!! :).
However, I also felt very thankful for the friends that I have today. I trust every one of them with my life but now and again everyone has their doubts right? It is human nature to be intrigued by what people are gossiping just for the sake of knowing its not about you. That's why I think people love gossip the most. They want to know that it's not about them not that they care much for the actual gossip.
Hrm... I also realized that i can be very brutal and sharp in my words but i guess some people just want to live without knowing the truth. I always believe that I'd rather have a friend that would tell me straight in my face rather than lie to me and talk behind my back. But i am really sorry if I hurt anyone in doing so because of my lack of ability to understand that same people are just different from me. The reason why people do this, is so that they don't hurt your feelings. But actually, in doing so, you are. Haha but i guess i'm the only one who feels this way? because i think about everything and very critically which causes me to doubt myself and sometimes others. Oh well :).
Well i just felt that i should share this because of well nothing in particular but i just need to express myself.
I always observe the people around me and I find that there are usually 5 types of friends in this world:
1) Your best friend; someone who always care's for you and vice versa. Someone you can depend on. Someone you know will always be there. I used to have 2, but now...
2) The good friend: The person that show's care for you but only to a certain extent. They will be there but they don't know you well enough to read your true thoughts.
3) The "good" friend: The person that asks about you when you are sick, the person that asks you why you don't want to go out all in an effort just to be polite. They don't really think too much about it, and what's worst, is if they try to force you to go when actually they don't really care that much.
4) The "hi" friend: Just a passer by that knows practically nothing about you and just say's Hi and Bye. He/she exhibits neither hate nor love.
5) The worst friend: The one who lie's right to your face and later talks bad about you. Its also known as the hypocritical friend.
Of course society has evolved to this stage whereby there are many types of people and these are but a few versions of your friends perhaps. I know this of my friends. It is impossible to have everyone the your good friend or best friend because there will always be those "good" friends and the rest stated. Usually they are just your friends because of some kind of connection, e.g. classmates or CCAmates/ PDPmates. Well, that's just how I feel and many people have said im not normal... so yeah. Oh well.
The time you spent on this earth should be used to the best of its ability because you never know when you're gone. Time is like a river, it bends and turns and floods. It is impossible to always be showered with happiness because it is simply and impossibility. A positive person thinks of the negative and try's to look at it positively. The mere fact that he/she thought about the negative implicates that he/she was unhappy for but a brief moment of time. Being happy forever is just completely weird and inhuman. That's just what I think :/. Well that's how I treat myself, I try to think of the positive but sometimes I just can't. Oh well...
Well anyway, today someone told me that she cries when she blogs and it kinda got me feeling sad, somewhat. it just goes to show that everyone has problems and I should be a bigger person and look pass my own trivial issues to try to help others. That's one of the reasons i want to be a doctor but yeah... Well I told her she could always talk to me and she simply responded : "It would not help much". Thought i felt hurt at the moment. I think she was just telling me the truth and I should be
thankful. Very thankful. How can I, someone who is usually feeling miserable and emo, etc, help someone else? Is it really possible. You can't help others if you first can't help yourself. Well i guess she is right. I should take a good look at the mirror try to understand my place in this world. Everyone was born for a reason, what determines that reason is what we do with what we have and how we effect the people around us.
Well that's it, my body is getting tired once again... So i shall go rest for a moment and start mugging again woo ! On the bright side, Hari Raya is coming soon and Im really happy about that :).
Positive thinking.
Something i just wanted to say... :
The difference between can and cannot are only three letters. Three letters that determine your life's direction.
Being positive or negative are habits of thoughts that have a very strong influence on life.
Positive and negative are directions. Which direction do you choose?
Positive thinking is expecting, talking and visualizing with certainty what you want to achieve, as an accomplished fact.
Riches, mediocrity and poverty begin in the mind.
Reality is the mirror of your thoughts. Choose well what you put in front of the mirror.
The mind is the decisive factor in your life, but who decides for the mind?
A positive attitude brings strength, energy and initiative.
To think negatively is like taking a weakening drug.
Positive thoughts are not enough. There have to be positive feelings and positive actions.
When you say, "I can't" and expect the worst, you become weak and unhappy.
When you say "I can", and expect success, you fill yourself with confidence and happiness.
Being resolute, decisive and courageous in small matters and in big ones is being positive.
You can close the windows and darken your room, and you can open the windows and let light in. It is a matter of choice. Your mind is your room. Do you darken it or do you fill it with light?
Positive thinking and negative thinking are attitudes. They are points of view, and show the way people handle their affairs.
Suppose you stand at a crossroads, one way leads to a desert and the other one to lush meadows, which way do you choose?
Clear thoughts produce produce clear results.
Positive thinking evokes more energy, more initiative and more happiness.
Train your mind to think in terms of 'possible' and 'can be done'.
When you have control over your thoughts, you have control over your life.
Happy thoughts attract happy people into your life.
Happy thoughts fill your life with happiness. Labels: Life
