Loving every second of happiness.
I gotta feeling, tonight's gonna be a good night!
Its really a pleasent life that anyone would love
And im so thankful because of everyone around me
PS im allergic to mushrooms and i dont like insects that much

Yesterday was totally fun :) we went for dance haha! Me and my 3 daughters yay ;). Mummy didnt go because she signed up for kayaking instead... ah well. Anyway, seeing mark dance was really entertaining :) and i was weird too haha. Alemap was like owning us all with her impressive split which only she could do during stretching. I struggled so hard! I recognised some cheerleaders there too! from Sharon's class :).
So all in all it was a really fun day and one of the best ive had in a long time. I gave joyce a lift to around my area so she could take bus home.. Thats was fun :) Finally got to talk more with her 1 on 1... apparently she thinks im emo if i dont talk haha.. I guess i really do talk too much... But now i find myself silent... w/e..

Pictures are on jolenes blog :)

Oh yes joke of the day for yesterday (weird sentence) :
Again from Mark....

(Look at picture for clear understanding)




Mark: Wow look at that guys screen! It's so big you can watch HD movies on it!!
Adnaan: What? OH LOL...
Hakim: (Asleep again....lazy bastard)

Ok so now today...
Today i felt really disconnected and somewhat away from reality. I only really talked to like 4 people today... the rest was just a 1 minute convo or something...
Ever had that feeling like someone is talking about you but you just don't know? Or if people are avoiding you but you don't know why? Im having that feeling almost everyday... I thought it would go away but it still lingers on in my head.. never ending... endless... Well i dont know for sure but im usually right about these things but i wish i was wrong.... My heart seems so drowned in sorrow although i have nothing to be sad about... Maybe it's just the feeling of no belonging. For one thing im kinda of the "click-less" person in class because i always like to mingle with everyone... so i guess it's kinda of my fault that i dont really have a few people to really turn too... Everyone's "clicks" seem to be getting stronger and i dont seem to be able to fit anywhere. I feel like im shattered into pieces and nobody wants to reassemble me. Im not trying to sound needy and i don't have attention issues but well.... yeah. Just a feeling i guess :/.

The my best friend isnt with me anymore and now i don't really think i have one. Maybe i do or maybe i don't because my other best friend doesnt really talk to me anymore... sigh. I don't have anyone to lie on when i am weak and nobody to talk to me when i am sad... though i have friends in school i dont know why i feel this way. Subconscious need for attention? Perhaps. What a lousy character i have. Ah well. Wow typing this out really makes me feel better :). Still feel the same. Everyday. Everytime. I'm surrounded by people yet im so alone. Whats the matter... I dont know.. :(

Well i training today did cheer me up a little... though candice criticized my bowling capabilities... Evil person ... :(. haha but i teased her too so all's fair. Also i was angry at leslie for pangsehing me twice today!! And leaving me in one of the worst possible predicaments.. grrr. Ah well everyone has a life i guess :/. Ah well i think i rahter not talk anymore or people may think i've become emo... and i talk rather too much. Only 1 person in class really told me that and i really appreciate it. This person also told me smth else that made me realise things about myself that i couldnt see. This post is a perfect example... talking about me only.. Oh well. Just need to rattle on about this somewhere.

Though i did find a video today that made me smile a little haha. :D



Btw joke of the day: Contributed by Jinyi
Adnaan: You're always trying to act pretty haha :)
Jinyi: I dont act... :(
Jinyi: Its a fact!
Adnaan: (self laughter)
Adnaan: ok la haha :).

Relish the feeling that you have
because you will never know when hope is lost
and everyone around you looks the other way
because nobody can stay happy forever

All we can do is hope for tomorrow
because today has gone away
We need to lose ourselves
In order to find ourselves again.

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